Will I? Part 2Dear me,Will I? Part 2 by awakebutasleep
I've broken things; like cups, bikes, and childhood dreams.
I tend to scream; its loud, its mad, and the words don't mean a thing.
I quit to quick; whether it was school, friends, or something needing a fix.
I cannot stop; I eat and eat until I drop. I'll stare at a screen, and fill my brain with mindless things.
I have become a circle; I'm going round and round until I drown. The murky water keeps getting higher, I just ignore it. But I'm no good liar.
I've fixed things now; like cuts, and birds, and fragile relationships.
I've stopped screaming; I'm more quite, I like to listen.
I've quit less; I tend to push myself to any goal.
I've stopped; Being someone I hated.
I am not one shape, but all sizes; I've changed my pov and opened new paths. I've explored new places, they've made me laugh.
As you can see I'm not as bad. Though I will always get angry or sad....
But those things are expected, and I'm prepared to fight, because now I can get rest at ni
Will I? Part1A sickness brews inside this soul, it holds no happy, its carves a hole.Will I? Part1 by awakebutasleep
An aching stings inside this heart, its valves lesser beating, its blood running hot.
The eyes are sore, the mouth is twisted. The brows are burrowed. The negatives listed.
A sad look to bestow, terrifying to behold. So chillingly cold, its frozen below.
The mirrors break, the children cry.
I'll be a monster til' the day I die.
Grateful...I am a bird without wings.Grateful... by awakebutasleep
A fish without gills.
A bike without tires.
A light without electricity.
A mouth without taste.
An eye without sight.
An ear without hearing.
I've now lost what was most important to me, Because I forgot to be thankful.
Nothing.A swirl of lifeless color, resides in my soul.Nothing. by awakebutasleep
Its sways back and forth.
it clashes my sides.
It likes to lose control.
A flooding mess pours from my eyes.
it feeds off the pain, it feeds off the anger.
Its blacker than black, its brighter than white.
I see nothing, its taken my eyes.
I hear nothing, its taken my attention.
Goodbye dear friends, its taken my life.